What do you do if you have forgotten how to pray?
I used to pray but haven’t done so in such a long time.
I feel that I need to send messages to that ‘being’, who is known as God.
I need answers.
As a baptised Catholic I am finding this very difficult.
There are Methodist and Anglican vicars in my locality but I don’t know of any English speaking ‘Roman’ priests that could help me.
I feel at a spiritual loss.
It is no good talking to ‘himself’ as he is a self-proclaimed agnostic… he has an ‘aggressive’ aversion to religion of any shape or form.
I have no idea what he is afraid of, but there is something in his background that has formed this opinion.
There is no empathy from him.
When he knew my sister had died his response, basically, was ‘Sorry, but when you get to our age people you know die.’
I can’t remember his exact words but that was the impression I got.
It seems as though the part of his brain that has feelings, empathy etc. is switched off.
The part of his brain that is concerned with himself though is fully up and running!
We had friends round for lunch yesterday.
They left at around 4pm.
He continued drinking, had a light snack later.
At half past midnight this morning I heard him in the loo voiding himself of all and everything.
When I mentioned it this morning he had no recollection….
I so need solace.
Tears come very easy these days.
The Old Biddie is not very happy…