Sunday 24 February 2013

My lovely sister lost her battle/fight, however one would describe such a thing, with cancer early Friday morning.....

It was so sudden, my whole family are shocked to the core at the speed of her death.

'Oh,' said the medics 'she has a few months, time to get the necessary affairs sorted.' 'We will keep her comfortable & etc......'

'Oh' we said 'We will all have a chance to see her and say our goodbyes.'

WRONG!

I am going through all sorts of emotions at the moment... Anger is to the fore most of the time. Angry that she did not stop smoking. Angry that I did not have that last chat with her. Angry that she in all probability knew she had cancer. Angry that my mother has lost a child.  Angry that her children have lost their mother. Angry that her grandchildren have lost their grandmother. Angry that her partner, who is so devoted, is now alone again.

So, I am off to the UK for not the best of reasons.

I know I will feel calmer once I have seen my family. 

2 comments:

  1. Anger and grief are twins....

    But you are right...once you see your family you will have and will give support.... and coping will at least seem possible.

    I am thinking of you.

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  2. I'm so sorry. Fly is right. Anger and grief are two sides of a coin and can feel overwhelming. Safe journey and I hope you can find and give the comfort and support you all need.

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